2/24/11

The Delight of Sacrifice

"Many of us are interested only in our own goals, and Jesus cannot help Himself to our lives. But if we are totally surrendered to Him, we have no goals of our own to serve. Paul said that he knew how to be a “doormat” without resenting it, because the motivation of his life was devotion to Jesus. We tend to be devoted, not to Jesus Christ, but to the things which allow us more spiritual freedom than total surrender to Him would allow." - Oswald Chambers

My delight is in Christ.
My hope is in Christ.
My service can be poured out to those around me.
My family.
My friends.
My enemies.
My neighbors.
Praise be to God.

What are my goals today?
Laundry.
Dinner.
Exercise.
Listen to lectures.

What are my spiritual goals?
How can I be of service to someone today?

Sometimes this is a hard thought because I feel "stuck" at home and cut-off from others.  I see my world of service as very narrow on a day-to-day basis. Yet, right behind me at his little table is my little son.  He deserves my service.  He deserves that I be poured out to him.  My husband, my 8-mon. old, and my 2-year old.  They all deserve me - to give myself to them, I must first draw from the well that is found in Christ - read His Word - commune with Him through prayer.  Then, I may empty myself completely (without resentment) to them.  The "without resentment" is also a point of interest.  I resent that I must be poured out.  I do it most days begrudgingly.  Yet - I am called to be a cheerful giver.  No more resentment or doing it out of "duty" - the key is found in Paul's life.  Paul was so in love with Christ - that it was a desire for him to be poured out for Christ.  May I not focus on the pouring out - but on my Christ who will supply all my needs.